Sol. My love. My cat. -_-

Werd. Myspace sucks. Gaiaonline Sucks. Roleplay sucks. But Emulators are gooooood. I must say though, I kept this thing longer than I expected I would. I suppose this is better than the bullshit I've posted in the past....my stupid obsessions and my paranoias...guh...
Life sucks. I want to die. Can't do much about that though, can I? Currently reading the Vampire Chronicles. I don't read very fast so--it might take a while. My cat just wriggled out of my lap....she was feeling ignored. X3 She's so adorable though. I think I love her more than anything else in the world.
Of course there's the love I feel for my family, and of course my love for them will always be eternal but...I don't feel the need for them like I used to. =/ Is that bad? I even at times wish I could be separated from them entirely. I suppose that is bad in some ways. I'd love to keep in touch, but to carry out the remainder of my life with them? I can see myself spending my whole life with one being only--my cat. Sad...but true. I need her. She brings me joy in ways I didn't think were possible. o_O Sound's gross...however my love for her keeps me to her. To fathom life without her is....impossible. Everything else in my life can go at it's free will, just as long as I am never to be separated from my beloved cat.
She's no longer a pet. She's become more of a companion. It's amazing that she actually reads my feelings as I do her. Is it all in my head? Do I really hold this connection with my cat? It's possible, or so I would like to believe. Maybe it's just some fanatical dream. Who knows? Who cares? I love my cat. I believe she loves me too. I just...don't ever want to lose her. -_-
I'm so gay.